Nutug 🀄️

写这篇文章的时候,意外了解到另有几首同名的《Tal Nutag》,其中有乌仁娜(Urna Chahar-Tugchi)的版本,1995德国发行的,据说名气很大。我有些好奇,找来听了一下。不死不活的,听不下去。我在TikTok 上撞见的无名氏的弹唱,还有安达组合的演唱,都能带给我nutug,带给我那片故乡。在乌仁娜那里,没有。也许,这世上真的有所谓“为音乐而音乐”的音乐,只是我始终没有学会那样去听音乐。给一首歌取名叫故乡,里面却既没有故,也没有乡。也许吧。
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来世今生

我眼前的西站,并不是马孔多。不是大地无情收回人类一度窃为己有的一切。恰恰相反。它是一个曾经真实存在过的地方,只是如今彻底被一个崛起的新世界所吞噬。新的道路。新的建筑。新的树木。新的时代。外科手术式的精确、整洁,几乎没有让旧日生活存下任何的痕迹。

那一天,世上曾经有过的一样东西,在我的心里死去了。

我爱你,阿霞依婼。
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My Debts to Gods and to Men

献给阿霞——ꀊꎓꒉꅶ Prologue What do we owe the people who trusted us, even when life—not ill will—carried us away from them? 1 Lately, nearly every day, there would come a moment when Axia Yiruo would return, rising from memories of days long gone, days which I had thought were lost forever, no longer existing except perhapsContinueContinue reading “My Debts to Gods and to Men”

“I Am a European”

To Barbara (Betty) Gaun (1891–1967) “I Want to Die in Europe” In 1949, two years before his death, Ludwig Wittgenstein traveled to the United States to visit his friend and former student Norman Malcolm, who was then teaching at Cornell University. During the visit, Wittgenstein became seriously ill. The illness was later found to beContinueContinue reading ““I Am a European””